Phoenix Reborn

Phoenix Reborn

Once again, I sit here in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaves, Shah Alam City Centre branch, smiling to myself and regaining confidence. Been a while since I actually felt this way: the confidence, the joy and the motivation to rise and fight. In fact, I’ve been sitting here since sometime this afternoon. Unless you’ve been following my blog and myself personally, you wouldn’t have a clear idea on who I am, how I think and behave. Nonetheless, life must go on.

All thanks to this song: the First Noel. I chose this particular clip out of the hundreds because of the sound quality. Try to appreciate both lyrics and melody, although you may not be Christian. It helps.

I admit, my performance have not been optimal. I have been lacking in several quarters of my life. Hey, that’s what lack of motivation an friends can do to you. Guess I’m not “monk material”, eh? Huhu… Yeah, distraught and disappointed but now, ever more determined. I have to get myself the Xmas Carols mp3 dvd or cd. it would really make my day.

Anyway, among the causes: http://www.friendster.com!!! Going through friendships lost and forgotten… Huhu… A cruel way to state it, I know. Hey, wouldn’t you be disappointed to have someone in your account, whom you know but reality prevents you both to develop that friendship? Huhu.. I had my regrets for things I took for granted. Then only to know the value once you lost it. Typical human. I’d name ‘em but it would be too, urm…, personal…

Yesterday’s event was interesting: my friend, Maxwell, and I walked from Plaza Masalam to Plaza Alam Sentral in Shah Alam. We entered the Big Bookshop and there it was: Sherlock Holmes and Animorphs! You have no idea how much I loathed Sherlock Holmes until I loved it. The complete compilation costs RM30!!! And Animorph’s? It was introduced to me back in 1997 by a former classmate of mine: Timothy Wong. The books kept me preoccupied in my “Age of Solitude”. Back then, one book costed about RM16.99 I think. The books we found here are only RM3.99! Dang! hahaha…

I guess with sorrow, life sweetens slightly. I’m counting my blessings as we enter September. Somehow in my fear of my past haunting me, I fail to appreciate that, unlike my past, I have more friends than I can remember. Because of my past, I am who I am today. And with my past in ashed, I spread my wings to fly ever more higher.

For now, Tingkau signing out!

Restructuring Blog

THE INTRODUCTION
Considering that I am planning to “imbibe my literary skills”, I came to the idea that I should have two blogs for that purpose. Some ideas have been playing in my head and I better not waste them. So action must be taken.

THE IDEA

The first blog, being this one, would contain all non-fiction entries which I came upon or wrote, which would include my personal experiances per se, commentaries, academic writing, assignments, discussions etc.

The second blog, Tingkau’s Fictions, is where I will post all my fictional works. I find that necessary because I will be indulging in several projects at a time. Several stories, that is. You can say it is my online “novels” and collection of sort stories.

THE PROBLEMS AND THE SOLUTIONS
So far, the idea is ideal. That way my readers would not be confused with the considerable change in entries. However a few problem arises:

1. The absurd number of blogs I have to maintain. Technically I just have to maintain two blogs, but I have other blogs as well to keep up. The problem was solved, in a way, during the revamp a few week ago. My Friendster.com blog was deleted, and my Myspace.com blog will soon follow suit. On blogspot itself, I would be having three blogs, but I will most likely delete the third on (Aldric’s Politics). With that, I will only end up with two blogs.

2. Protection of Intellectual Property. Since the second blog would be entirely fictional, the risk of someone actually using the entries are present. Well, I guess it’s for my amusement and not for profit to begin with. But if you do find my work on another site, do inform me. Thank you.

3. Regularity of Entries. Maintaining two blogs require frequent entries. Although I have the time, I lack the internet access. So the “classical” solution would be my blog would be updated at least once every week.

THE IMPLEMENTATION
Give me about one (1) week to materialise all this. But I can set the other blog up after I post this entry.

THE CONCLUSION
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On the Road to Self Destruction

Mixed feelings, like usual, towards life. I miss the times when there was someone I can talk to anytime. Since my first year, a lot have changed around me. Some things are easier to accept while others, well, remain hard enough. Here’s what I mean:

Fact/Change 1: Not staying on-campus. This is my first time staying outside, it’s been about a month since. While I was at the bus stop near FTMSK (what was I doing there in the first place?), I got a good view of Perindu Residential College. I stayed there for about a year in Room 3317. It’s an 8-person room in the 3rd block. Strategic location, one room away from the stairs to Perindu 2 and a short distance to the toilet. The first semester was my fondest while the 2nd was more tranquil. Tranquil in a sense that the 8-person room was never full. Now, I gotta take the bus every morning, not that I’m complaining. People, I arrive early to class! I’m more than punctual!

What do I miss? I miss the people that surrounded me. Back then, I could just go to anyone’s room if i needed someone to talk to. Now, I enjoy the true solace of my own room. My social life has been curbed tremendously now.

Fact/change 2: The past returns… Yeah, my former classmates and schoolmates are beginning to flood Shah Alam. I get to be reminded of the “good” old days of wearing white and dull green almost everyday. Some just don’t know how to react, while other ignore me. A number acknowledges me. I cannot claim th fact that I had any good friends to begin with. They were mostly activity partners. Also the juniors from UiTM Kedah have arrived. All of ‘em, I think.

Fact/Change 3: I am yet to live a “normal” student’s life. Since joining UiTM/starting my uni years, I am yet to be a plain student. Something always comes my way, and I mean always. Either by design or chance. For once, I want to live a life of that everyday student. Why am I complaining? Try holding presidencies after presidencies, directorship after directorship, non-stop! To a point, it does become annoying.

Fact/Change 4: I have no idea what I’m writing about. What I do know is I am about to self destruct again… A nicer way to put it is by saying, I’m going through a series of metamorphosis.